Sunday, July 11, 2010

Working during Holiday

I’m leaving my hometown, Ipoh, after a long holiday. I need to go back to UM to have another sem. This holiday, I didn’t totally stay at home(If I did so, I would be bored till die!), I spent a big portion of my holiday to work at KL, to earn some money.

Let’s recall what kind of jobs I involved in this holiday. Wern Yet, Chu Hong and I went to lots of place for interviews, for instances, restaurants, shops, promoter agents and etc.

We went to a training at E-promoter, at that time, I got my first job which is to promote Protex products at Guardian Bukit Bintang for 8 days. But then, I quitted that lame job after 2 days working. I just couldn’t bear with the suffocating atmosphere, boredoms and tiredness. I was supposed to do sampling on sanitizer, but guess what? Sanitizer is not being sold in that outlet! My supervisor asked me to promote other Protex Products, but somehow, it seemed stupid to let customers tried on the sanitizer, then told them it was not being sold there, asked them to purchase another products. WTF. Most of the customers were foreigners, and some of them didn’t even know English or Chinese. I ended up with weak sales in the first two days, then my supervisor called and complained on me, she asked me to be more aggressive(chase customers and keep promoting), walao…if you were customers, would you get annoyed? Well, maybe it was not a suitable job for me, so I quitted.

For weekdays, I worked at Ecoparadise, mostly on customer services. The spa is based on the concept of anti-oxidant which can neutralize excessive free radicals in our body, and hence stabilize our body with immunity boosted. That means when I was working, I actually breathed in the anti-oxidant also, indeed it made me feel healthier and more energetic. It was not a tough job and I had a lot of free time, the manager also treated us so nice, I had quite a lot of free meals during the working period, haha, really need to thank Mrs Wong. I made new friends and meet those customers with severe diseases, I appreciated their will to fight for their lives. It was a really great job that provided learning chances for me, I didn’t regret and perhaps, I would go back to work someday.

I also worked as promoter for Safegg at Wisma Thrifty for 6 days, another tiring job. It was a job to test my patience and ability to eat snake! Well, it was still better than promoting Protex because it was higher paid and more convenience. I didn’t have much constraint so, I usually have chance to eat snake! The egg I promoted is the healthiest, safest and yet, it is the most costly one. Most of the customers stressed on economic products, so they seldom purchased such expensive things, despite how good it was. It was true! For me, it was not really worth it. But anyway, I still need to thank the person who introduced the job for me. Haha…

After a month of hard work, I reached the amount that I targeted to earn. I went back to Ipoh and ready for my trip. So excited! I was able to afford a backpack in Singapore! A memorable one! Hooray!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

2nd year..

Wah…Time flies, I have finished 2nd year, now moving ahead to 3rd year. I have also stepped into my golden age, it’s my 21st. Let’s see what I’ve done during my 2nd year and some of the reveals of my thought.

Academic: Err…pretty well? But don’t think that I’m proud of this, I am just satisfied that my hard work was really really paid off and I was really really lucky! Or I can say that it was not a really hard work, maybe I just become more used to the examination system and question pattern. And also, my coursemates have been assisting me all the time, I won’t improve otherwise. So, really want to thank them! Especially for those who ever let me copy assignment…hehe… For the upcoming year, I wish I could be more independent and hardworking, don’t be procrastinating!

GACC: The atmosphere was much better than 13th. I was a publication director, thanks to Chai Jhen, Siow Hoong, and Swee Jiat for their helps. Hopefully the book was not disappointing. And also, for all the MTs, sorry if I’ve done something wrong, I was really enjoyed to work and play with you guys, especially Li hong, Gacc 14 would have been quiet all along without her…haha..more outings coming?

JKPAP/MOHEC: Oo…really sorry that I burst out in that meeting, sorry to my victim, Jo Ee, I was not really in good mood at that time, hope you didn’t mind. MOHEC was the first time organized by us, so there were plenty of mistakes might have happened, nevermind, we learned from mistakes! And I think I’ve handled the account in a quite messy way, and some of the debt I even haven’t collected yet, and yet I don’t plan to do so…sorry la...I fed up with that arrogant girl. (Is she?)

MATB1: Very funny, I was the publication director again, and all my anak biro were my roommates or ex-roommates! Ken, Zen, and Wern Yet, thank you also la, sometimes you guys were quite helpful, but actually I think there were nothing much to help also..haha…anyways, good to have you all. And yet, thanks Jun Yan as a responsible director! Bravo..

CC: Congrats May Fong , Choong Wern and Cheng Leong succeeded in representing CC…We really can see your effort and sincerity. For the CC activities organized, I personally think that it should have partially cut off, it makes us becoming lazier to join, don’t talk about tradition, again and again, it’s not necessary… Anyway, there were some activities which were remarkable, like SF night, Mooncake festival and CNY, I had a lot of fun indeed! Good Jobs for the coor. Wish that CC would be more successful next year!

Friends: There are friends I like or don’t like, but it will definitely remain in secret! Hehe..seriously I don’t like annoying friends and bird friends, nobody does right? I am not the person who can make jokes or being put inside the jokes all the while…I admit that my EQ is a bit low, I might be emotional, but now I’m learning how to control it…and definitely I won’t put on the facebook status to let people know la, maybe before that I would, but I found it helpless and it just will be irritating, so what’s the point? And yet, really thanks for those friends who really treat me as their good friends. I may not be the ideal friend. In my mind, there is always a scale, I will treat a friend as the way he treat me, sounds fair right?

Okay, last but not least, I would welcome my 3rd year with my open arms, let’s see what would happen, a breakthrough? Lol..

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

最近很烦!

为什么最近这样烦,多tests到死,搞到我对college的活动不负责任,考试又少分,都不知道lecturer要什么。这个礼拜生日,是二十一岁的,但是偏偏这个礼拜最多tests,要在房间煲lecture notes粥,不能出去wet,妈的,Sien死。。

Friday, January 15, 2010

最近很free

超旧没写部落各了,不是懒惰,而是觉得没有这个必要。今天突然会写,也只是因为心中的郁闷,有时候真的不懂为什么自己这样废!空闲了又不会好好利用时间,总觉得有东西忙会使自己更有冲劲,更会利用时间。现在太过清闲了,整个人都好像很废,做什么都毫无意义,有东西等着去做的,但自己不肯起步,变得过分懒散!我需要一些东西来做,使自己忙一点,要给自己一点推动力,自己才会变得积极。不懂改天会不会变成工作狂?但愿如此!我希望自己是工作狂,赚多多钱来实现自己的梦想 – 去环游世界,买豪宅美车,让家人感到光荣!哈哈,毕竟还是个梦想啦。。

讲下最近发生的事,两个roommates都在忙,其实自己也有东西忙的,但总是很快就可以settle。所以就每天无所事事,在房间,又没有kaki出街,人缘不好吧,还是自己太挑剔?这样也好,可以帮自己省下钱。哈哈!但是自己这样free,身边的人每天都有节目,不知不觉自己好像被遗弃般,有时还蛮羡慕他们的。原来做真正的lubok是不容易的,除非我有女朋友咯。。有时别人会叫我找个女朋友,但要找到适合的不容易,而且自己还蛮享受单身的生活,这个话题就暂时搁置。但身边的朋友一直在讲着那些关于恋爱的是非,有时真的觉得很sien,看到那些不清不楚的,骂架收场的,为男女朋友而emo的,更sien。可能自己还没感受到,或是自己已有这样的感觉,并已经习惯了?有时候机会已经在眼前,但往往没有去把握,因为还是觉得恋爱真的不能当饭吃啊!蛮肯定的是,我不会是个好的选择,不想害人,哈哈!

最近bodycheck后,才发祥自己的身子出现小状况,要远离油腻的食物,很sien,自己最爱吃的就是煎炸的食物,健康的吃少,不健康的越爱吃,自残!而且还上更半夜才睡,不做运动,自杀式的生活习惯!妈妈每天call来唠叨,自己还是改不了,而且还嫌妈妈烦,不孝!咳,当然懂妈妈是关心我,她是全世界对我最好了,也不懂如何报答她。。惟有读好书,将来有一番作为,只是不懂有没有这样长命啦,做笑。

讲下GACC吧,它在去年年尾就已经落幕了。其实自己本身还蛮喜欢今年的感觉,风格不一样,改革了许多,在juniors的口中,他们都觉得很轻松,很enjoy,没有想象中那么忙。。很开心的,这也代表了十一个MTS的成功!要谢谢lihong和meishan,他们找到的product,我们都拿到很爽,哈哈!当然还有director的‘默默付出’,他真的很犀利,只是低调了少少。GACC MTS 不同的地方是,他们对自己的project都好像不会有很重的feeling,感觉上好像办完了就算,我也是其中之一,不懂这样算好吗?当然有时MTS一起出来玩的时候也蛮爽的,尤其是看lihong发癫!当了半年的GACC publication director,我真的没有后悔,而且‘获益’良多,就好像从下一年起,我们每年都有免费的五星酒店晚餐。

最近真的比较sien啦,希望过后的我能找回当初对生活的热情吧,也要improve一下自己的EQ,因为上次才骂人来。。对了,最近跟roommate买了一样款的新电话,越来越喜欢它,有了它,我就可以随时拍照了!要多谢文业的推荐,还有大奶zen的婆妈。。

早上四点了,KEN已睡到整只猪这样,明天没上课,可以继续废了!晚安!

Friday, August 7, 2009

间接的伤害

日子越来越难过了,很多东西都开始身不由己。虽说活在群体社会里,要凡是为大家而着想,但我看到的是自私自利。受苦的就是那些还傻傻循规依据的人。

虽然我并没有资格去讲,可能我也是自私的一群,但我真的很想看到改变,有些事情越去理会,越弄巧成拙,受害的往往是还没看透一切的人。

其实,纠纷的发生就是因为那自私的一群,也不要说因为别人自私而需要把自己变得自私点。不管别人怎样,最重要是做好自己的本分,对得起自己也对得起别人。虽然是吃亏了点,但起码还能问心无愧,状况发生了,我们还能堂堂正正的发言,不怕别人无证据的反驳。虽然先自私的人是不对,但那些后来变得自私的人又可以说是对吗?他们只会一味扩大那些先自私的人,过后就把它们来作为自己后自私的借口,五十步笑百步。当引起不和时,他们就会把先自私的人来‘垫底’,当然可以抱着自己的利益,但却害了不少的人。

一个人,假如在对自己不利的情况下还能坚持放下自己的私心,虽然可能对自己现在或将来是有吃亏,但我觉得在别人的眼中,他是被尊重的。

很矛盾的,我确实是没有做到这点,但我自问我又尝试去改,只是情况真的让我很为难,所以被我间接伤害过的朋友,我真的很抱歉!希望我们还能真心的和平相处,而不是面具待人。

Saturday, August 1, 2009

一片烂的性情写照

星期六的晚上,很多人都不在这里,有些回家了,有些去游玩了。我一人呆在bbg,坐在最角落的地方,在这儿陪伴我的只有laptop,notes,和听不厌的英文歌。冷清的bbg,只有寥寥无几的juniors在各自忙各自的,相比平时多人吵杂的情形,现在清静简单得多了,感觉很不一样。越来越喜欢孤单的我,并不是换上忧郁症,只是有点厌倦群体生活里的应酬,想换个比较简单的环境来平衡自己的心理,重整自己的思绪。

在新的一个SEM里,不能否认自己的责任已增加,喜欢的,不喜欢的,或是被逼的,已不能由我自己去选择,要活在群体中,便要凡事为群体而着想,为群体的利益作为中心,没有所谓的自私和我行我素。对于新的juniors,从认识到引导,都有着新的体验。整体上,second year 的生活是另外一个新的挑战。状况会频频发生,不懂到时自己还应付得到吗?就当作是一个考验,一个对自己将来的训练。

跟朋友冷战了,心情低落了,也不懂是否值得。可能只有单方面的不开心,别人或许根本就不在乎。对于‘朋友’的价值观,见仁见智,也没有一定的评估,所以就算把朋友的位置放在最后一位,是没错的,但也别怪一厢情愿注重‘友情’的那位傻瓜,他也是无辜的。只是性格思想上的把戏,不合就没瘾了。友情是会死的,它的寿命是看两方面的造化,孤掌难鸣,无论多么的努力,换回来的只有被耍的滋味。哈,好烂得形容!朋友之间,最基本的信用都没了,挽救有用吗?算吧,别逞强了,结果是不会改变的,就由他,最起码还能保留自己的尊严和潇洒。当时间冲淡了一切后,最后剩下的,应该只有遗忘了。

暂时还没遇到有让自己心动的人,不如就趁这个机会,多专注于功课和project,别让自己违背了誓言后,又为过失而闷闷不乐了。老土的说法,佳人有约,就此搁笔!


还蛮喜欢这张照片的。。

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Memories Rewind

It is already a week I am home for my holiday...All these days I seem like very useless, everyday watch series or listen songs, or else will hang out with friends, money wasting! Now I am really bankrupt! Don't really have enough money to indulge anymore, but somehow I don't know what else actually I can do for these 2 weeks instead of indulging...something meaningful to do? People say there usually is, just depend on if I want to dig them out...At home, no internet connection, no newspapers, all I have is just a multifunction laptop...It helps me a lot, in the sense of filling my free time...Studying for next sem? Not my style, I even don't know my result yet! What a troublesome finance system handled by UM...or maybe I was oblivious with the things happened within my course? Perhaps, I am not closed with my course mates. This is the thing I really need to improve. Let see what else can do at home, helping to do housework? Learn some cooking skills? If you are me, will you do this?? Haha, a "lazy" explain all unwillingness. I think what most people do in holiday is just almost similar with me...unless for those who are working. Unfortunately I can't work due to time constraint, my holiday is less than 1 month. Working with Papa isn't a good idea for me too, I'm totally not interested in rough works and what he does, some more he would not let me to do anything that really helpful, just simple "servant jobs" that what I call. Maybe I am too selective? Just deeply think that kind of job would not be suitable with my age, status, and capability.

Maybe I am 'void', so lots of my first year memory haunts my mind, vividly. Friends, projects, activities...

Let's talk about what projects I have joined.

GACC 13: Erm...It is a really good projects and a good opportunity to learn and gain experience. I could see how did seniors enjoy the process, and through GACC, they have a very strong bond between each other, but it is not for me...How reluctant it is, I won't give up doing my part cause I don't want to be the irresponsible one. I really enjoy in learning in GACC, but not the policy that being done...We had controversy and unsatisfactory, it was a hard time indeed. It was a miracle that we are able to run this international program with the shortage of time and man power. Really pity for those who have multi tasks, but they did great! After a long run, a taste of satisfaction and happiness are no longer practical for me, just a taste of relief that I could feel. For those who attended the post molten, I need to say sorry, and say thanks to those who support me...That time I was arrogant, but I was telling my true view...Thanks to my director chin yee, she is my tender 'mom'...

CNY coor: I really enjoyed the preparation, getting known with other coors, making jokes together. I feel relaxed maybe because it is informal one, and we don't have much limitation. That night, everything was running smoothly but the games that I created, stupid! I didn’t expect people would not be sporting. It made the coors around became stupid too...sad! But situation was still under control, luckily got ah Goh assist me, thanks again!

Feseni: Another activity that I was being irresponsible. I enjoyed in the beginning but getting bored with the frequent practices afterwards. Maybe it was not frequent, but most of the time of practice will clash with my plan which have been planned earlier, like my first clubbing, celebrating people birthday, all I needed to skip because of practice. I skipped class too because of my fatigue body in the next day of the practice day. And also the hairstyle, we are students, not artists, we didn’t have to sacrifice our images just for the sake of 3 minutes dance. Did I dance for my life? Professional dancer? It didn’t make sense that we didn’t have the right to reject...But somehow, I just couldn't say 'no'. People said I sacrifice for art, no, i sacrifice for my responsibility. I was angry. But when the stylist was about to shave my hair, I found there's nothing to be angry about, just being happy to face it and I did it. I enjoyed the period being botak...haha! And I need to say sorry to zee way, cause sometime I was quite 'bird', but she is the patient one.

Performances: Dancing in senior-freshies night, mitb...paiseh, the lame dance I created one, and I watched back the video, it was really lame! I didn’t blame any dancers, but the dance steps that I taught, is really lame! Sometimes I was quite mad in teaching, and sometimes I will laugh at those funny mistakes that people made, especially Cherry, now I am still laughing, haha, sorry ya! And I sang in GACC closing ceremony and matb 2. For GACC one, I just felt that there was not enough performances, so I decided to duet which is the easiest solution. Thanks for may fong be my partner, your voice is sweet, but sorry cause the great impact on us after the duet. Rumors!! Unbearable, from GACC till the whole college, never end! Come on la, don't spoil may fong market, I don't want to be blamed. And the matb2 one, nice appearance, sucks in singing. At first, there were 3 people sing with me, but at last left me alone, it needed a great courage to be solo, I just wanted to reject, but somehow, responsibility made me changed my mind. Hopefully it wasn't a washout!

MMK: It was a project I truly like. Although I wasn't a member, but I wished my little support have given a little help on your project...The closing was impressive! Good Job.

How about my friends then? Zen, Ken and Wern Yet, thank you all are my 2nd sem roommates. I know I am meticulous in cleanliness and neat but you all are really nice to bear with me! I won’t forget we used to have good time together, ordering mcdi, chit-chatting and play together if there was any, and sorry if I have done something wrong to you all ...Again, thanks for the wallet, it is nice! Joe, Suresh, Bear, May Fong and Cherry, you all looks like the children of Samantha, but don’t absorb her essence la...Cause will be very scary de...haha! Thanks for accompanying so much and I enjoyed those outings! Again, don’t laugh my English pronunciation o...And I have nothing to do with May Fong, don’t spoil her market la...My GACC mates, really enjoy working with you all, you all are very nice! Scold me if I am being irresponsible! I know it will be a very difficult process, but I really looking for the time when 11 of us sitting in the round table and having dinner together in the closing ceremony...and cheer for success. Gambateh...My course mates, unless Suresh, I think I am not that closed with others, but I really hope to improve that. Thanks for those who have helped me a lot in my studies, borrowing me homework, and informing me course information! They are helpful, arigato! And special for Shawn and Shok Kim, thanks for borrowing me printer and help me a lot in studies...

I really enjoyed my first year, I will always miss it...Especially Genting trip and Pangkor trip, so glad that I never felt outcast in both of this trip, I was totally relaxing and enjoying to the utmost, there were not any disappointment and I didn’t have any burden...Thanks for the coor and those who was being with me all the way...2nd year, I think I won’t have much time to enjoy and try something new anymore, I have two important tasks that I need to put them as priorities now – Studies and GACC 14...I regretted that I didn’t put my full concentration in studies and lead me to the worst result, I swear I won’t do the same mistakes in the upcoming sem...I can’t afford to lose my pointer again because of the temptations and activities...

I have gone too much, and there is no doubt that I have experienced the joy and grief, I will learn from the pass and make me fully prepared for the upcoming 2nd year. Who’d have known, when you flash up on my mind, I will not feel alone. Miss you, my first year!