Memories Rewind

It is already a week I am home for my holiday...All these days I seem like very useless, everyday watch series or listen songs, or else will hang out with friends, money wasting! Now I am really bankrupt! Don't really have enough money to indulge anymore, but somehow I don't know what else actually I can do for these 2 weeks instead of indulging...something meaningful to do? People say there usually is, just depend on if I want to dig them out...At home, no internet connection, no newspapers, all I have is just a multifunction laptop...It helps me a lot, in the sense of filling my free time...Studying for next sem? Not my style, I even don't know my result yet! What a troublesome finance system handled by UM...or maybe I was oblivious with the things happened within my course? Perhaps, I am not closed with my course mates. This is the thing I really need to improve. Let see what else can do at home, helping to do housework? Learn some cooking skills? If you are me, will you do this?? Haha, a "lazy" explain all unwillingness. I think what most people do in holiday is just almost similar with me...unless for those who are working. Unfortunately I can't work due to time constraint, my holiday is less than 1 month. Working with Papa isn't a good idea for me too, I'm totally not interested in rough works and what he does, some more he would not let me to do anything that really helpful, just simple "servant jobs" that what I call. Maybe I am too selective? Just deeply think that kind of job would not be suitable with my age, status, and capability.

Maybe I am 'void', so lots of my first year memory haunts my mind, vividly. Friends, projects, activities...

Let's talk about what projects I have joined.

GACC 13: Erm...It is a really good projects and a good opportunity to learn and gain experience. I could see how did seniors enjoy the process, and through GACC, they have a very strong bond between each other, but it is not for me...How reluctant it is, I won't give up doing my part cause I don't want to be the irresponsible one. I really enjoy in learning in GACC, but not the policy that being done...We had controversy and unsatisfactory, it was a hard time indeed. It was a miracle that we are able to run this international program with the shortage of time and man power. Really pity for those who have multi tasks, but they did great! After a long run, a taste of satisfaction and happiness are no longer practical for me, just a taste of relief that I could feel. For those who attended the post molten, I need to say sorry, and say thanks to those who support me...That time I was arrogant, but I was telling my true view...Thanks to my director chin yee, she is my tender 'mom'...

CNY coor: I really enjoyed the preparation, getting known with other coors, making jokes together. I feel relaxed maybe because it is informal one, and we don't have much limitation. That night, everything was running smoothly but the games that I created, stupid! I didn’t expect people would not be sporting. It made the coors around became stupid too...sad! But situation was still under control, luckily got ah Goh assist me, thanks again!

Feseni: Another activity that I was being irresponsible. I enjoyed in the beginning but getting bored with the frequent practices afterwards. Maybe it was not frequent, but most of the time of practice will clash with my plan which have been planned earlier, like my first clubbing, celebrating people birthday, all I needed to skip because of practice. I skipped class too because of my fatigue body in the next day of the practice day. And also the hairstyle, we are students, not artists, we didn’t have to sacrifice our images just for the sake of 3 minutes dance. Did I dance for my life? Professional dancer? It didn’t make sense that we didn’t have the right to reject...But somehow, I just couldn't say 'no'. People said I sacrifice for art, no, i sacrifice for my responsibility. I was angry. But when the stylist was about to shave my hair, I found there's nothing to be angry about, just being happy to face it and I did it. I enjoyed the period being botak...haha! And I need to say sorry to zee way, cause sometime I was quite 'bird', but she is the patient one.

Performances: Dancing in senior-freshies night, mitb...paiseh, the lame dance I created one, and I watched back the video, it was really lame! I didn’t blame any dancers, but the dance steps that I taught, is really lame! Sometimes I was quite mad in teaching, and sometimes I will laugh at those funny mistakes that people made, especially Cherry, now I am still laughing, haha, sorry ya! And I sang in GACC closing ceremony and matb 2. For GACC one, I just felt that there was not enough performances, so I decided to duet which is the easiest solution. Thanks for may fong be my partner, your voice is sweet, but sorry cause the great impact on us after the duet. Rumors!! Unbearable, from GACC till the whole college, never end! Come on la, don't spoil may fong market, I don't want to be blamed. And the matb2 one, nice appearance, sucks in singing. At first, there were 3 people sing with me, but at last left me alone, it needed a great courage to be solo, I just wanted to reject, but somehow, responsibility made me changed my mind. Hopefully it wasn't a washout!

MMK: It was a project I truly like. Although I wasn't a member, but I wished my little support have given a little help on your project...The closing was impressive! Good Job.

How about my friends then? Zen, Ken and Wern Yet, thank you all are my 2nd sem roommates. I know I am meticulous in cleanliness and neat but you all are really nice to bear with me! I won’t forget we used to have good time together, ordering mcdi, chit-chatting and play together if there was any, and sorry if I have done something wrong to you all ...Again, thanks for the wallet, it is nice! Joe, Suresh, Bear, May Fong and Cherry, you all looks like the children of Samantha, but don’t absorb her essence la...Cause will be very scary de...haha! Thanks for accompanying so much and I enjoyed those outings! Again, don’t laugh my English pronunciation o...And I have nothing to do with May Fong, don’t spoil her market la...My GACC mates, really enjoy working with you all, you all are very nice! Scold me if I am being irresponsible! I know it will be a very difficult process, but I really looking for the time when 11 of us sitting in the round table and having dinner together in the closing ceremony...and cheer for success. Gambateh...My course mates, unless Suresh, I think I am not that closed with others, but I really hope to improve that. Thanks for those who have helped me a lot in my studies, borrowing me homework, and informing me course information! They are helpful, arigato! And special for Shawn and Shok Kim, thanks for borrowing me printer and help me a lot in studies...

I really enjoyed my first year, I will always miss it...Especially Genting trip and Pangkor trip, so glad that I never felt outcast in both of this trip, I was totally relaxing and enjoying to the utmost, there were not any disappointment and I didn’t have any burden...Thanks for the coor and those who was being with me all the way...2nd year, I think I won’t have much time to enjoy and try something new anymore, I have two important tasks that I need to put them as priorities now – Studies and GACC 14...I regretted that I didn’t put my full concentration in studies and lead me to the worst result, I swear I won’t do the same mistakes in the upcoming sem...I can’t afford to lose my pointer again because of the temptations and activities...

I have gone too much, and there is no doubt that I have experienced the joy and grief, I will learn from the pass and make me fully prepared for the upcoming 2nd year. Who’d have known, when you flash up on my mind, I will not feel alone. Miss you, my first year!