Ok, well, let's continue writing my blog...To night i tend to spend my night at bbg because my room full of people, and they are busy studying for their test, it is not a good idea to disturb them, or i can say, occupying the space, making the atmosphere more suffocating. And I also need some privacy to write my blog.
Well, let's continue my previous story that i have my words to tell about why I was upset during my official birthday, especially the outing at the night. I was being promised too much and i put too much expectation on it, but finally lead to disappointment. Actually that day i was about to plan spending the day alone, like going mid-valley see things and had a nice meal. I tended to do so because I didn't want any promises from the others but they broke them eventually. It would upset me, especially for those I expected. But it has happened. ZEN said he wanted to accompany me, so as Joee and wern yet...I was happy because there were friends willingly to spend time with me for my birthday...In the evening, I received message from yoke ting, she said she is going to mid-valley also with her gang, and asked me whether wanna join them, of course I said yes! I started to expect the outing, I really thought they will hang out with me, together celebrated my birthday since i din't notice any cad-cam girls around at the night of celebration. But somehow, I was so upset in the end of story...
First thing is i was waiting for my roomates back, I have prepared nicely to set me ready for the outing, since I really need to do some surveys at mid-valley, so i didn't want any delay. And they have promised me to eat dinner at Kim Gary together. I waited until 6.30pm, my roomates came back, and they said they have eaten the du food...What the---! I thought we were going to have dinner together outside, why they ate first but never tell me? This is the first 'aeroplane'. Wern Yet, who I thought is going out with me, and also his gang, they were actually ready to go out after dinner, but they never suppose that I thought I was joinning them...This is the second aeroplane..Forget it, I still have ZEN, KEN and Joee, but when I was back to room after my dinner, ZEN was there, and he was washing his clothes! Didn't he ever think that I was rushing? And then joee, he was playing squash at 6th college!! And he forgot the outing! And we did call him lots of time, he never reply...I really felt sad and angry at that time, that was the third aeroplane...But I still wanted to control my temper...I couldn't get angry during my birthday...That time my mood was totally spoiled...somemore I need to wait my roommates to get ready, I was well-prepared and waiting there, but they still seems like pocrastinating...Haiz...ok, fine! That time I was about to cancel my outing, but somehow, I couldn't be selfish like that, I felt like they were not going out for me but I were the one who going out for them instead! I really had no mood, but I knew it was not so good that i burst out on the spot, I needed to control...I din't know the way to make me feel better, all I wanted was being alone, calming down my mind! Yes, it does work for me when I was dull...So I was being irresponsible that I seperated myself with ZEN and KEN, pity them! I knew it was stupid and shouldn't be done, but sorry, I really din't know how to face them when i was really moody...Perhaps it was a good chance for them to improve the 'roommateship', haha! I went through almost all the male shops to search for my desired 'matb 2' shirt, but all of them were damn expensive! I took some pictures on the center court since there were creative exhibition. Until my mind was calm, so I sms my roommates for movie, and i met them again at the top floor. But however, my mood was not fully recovered yet, although ZEN and KEN were trying to joke with me, but my mood was just like that! I was sorry and thanks for being nice to please me...I really appreciated it! Haiz...I knew I actually looking for something but just it couldn't be fulfill somehow. After the stupid 'chunli' movie, we took the taxi and back to UM and i never met the cad-cam gang in mid-valley.
I knew I was quite emotional sometimes, and when I was upset, everything seems like going wrong, and i would start blaming other people...And it's not a virtue that should be carried on, this is my weakness, I should change it...Although from my words, the one who did wrong sounds like other people, but I really shouldn't blame them, if I stand on their view, I would know there is nothing that I thought it should have been. So, I need to learn to be optimistic, if I show out my anger, it would bring trouble for my friend also...
Monday, March 16, 2009
My so-called birthday celebration
So long I din't update my blog, even my birthday, i also din't remark it that i think i shouldn't. Well, today is a good day when my Asb mid-term test is over and gladly, i managed to answer it well! :) Why suddenly feel like updating my blog? Because my roommate ZEN said he wrote his very first diary yesterday and he thinks he should proceed it since he is scared of loosing such good memories in UM...Well, he did inspire me that I need to proceed my blog! Yes, the mood comes and I'm gonna tell you what has happened in my birthday of 2009 and some of my own perceptions...
I think I will never forget the day of 3 March 2009. Starting from 11pm onwards, the things happened seriously never in my record of my life! It was gross! I was about to finish my dancing practise( I hate it), but during the practise, I noticed my friend Joee brought a cake to mamak, i guessed he is going to put it inside the refrigerator and prepared for my up-coming birthday...Haha, it was in my expectation, sure would celebrate at mamak! I always like to test my prediction and it is always justified...But not that day! I purposely delayed my dancing pratice and reached room with a tired body, KEN and ZEN are inside, ZEN was busy of something and i could see he took pales when he left...Erm...water fight huh? I pretended knowing nothing. As usual, i bathed and wore nicely, preparing for the so-called birthday party. I asked KEN about the missing of ZEN, and he told me lies, I considered them as nonsense la...Cause i guessed i know what was happenning. After that, I was brought to the lobby by Joee and KEN. Then, KEN started to blindfold me and i was panicked that i started to think otherwise. Surely a surprise, but what kind of surprise it would bring? Until I heard some familiar stench and freaky voices, I know what was going to happen! I would be tortured! I was not so sure how's it gonna to be, but I knew that time, i couldn't run away! The time has come, I was tied with the column in 'tengkayun' roughly, and the violence came. I was asked to choose a number of presents, 1-5. I knew what were they, water, ice, and so on...I randomly picked the numbers, and they started to give me a series of surprise, more suitable words, torments! They were insanely pouring the water on me, making me became a wet dummy. They putting ices inside my clothes and pants, making me became an ice man. They took off my belt and I was so shamed as there were girls watching out there! I wasn't so sure who they are since I was blindfolded. Next, a white man, they rub the toothpaste on my body, made my body shivering like hell! And perhaps they put the toothpaste inside my underwear as well! Huhu...hopefully the toothpaste was not expired...Whatelse? They threw water baloons on me, and also eggs, but i was so numb as that time cause my receptors were no longer working as there were too much sense happening simultaneosly...Lastly, they put the wax on my nipples. I was about to loosen my ties, and then i started to chase people for revenge, so unlucky, i fall down quite a few times until my silipar was broken, they were so expert in hiding, and i acted like a crazy people with upset appearance. Until Joee and ZEN dared to approach me and helped mr to rinse my body. I seized the chance to revenged on ZEN by pouring water on him. Haha..
It was definitely useless to rinse my body on the spots, and chai hoe suggested to go mamak to celebrate my birthday officially with my special look. What a 'nice' suggestion. Not to wasting too much time, i was excorted to the mamak. The weather is exceptionally cold! I was trembling all the time. Thanks for Mei Xian to help me switched off the fans. Then, my cake finally appeared, it was my second cake in my life! It was a choclate cake with bananas inside. 'Sorry, we all love you, Talung' was written on it with two big candles, indicating that i was already 20 years old. As a tradition of 2nd college, I sang 'trilanguage' birthday songs out loud for my own. It was no longer embarassing since my look is already shameful enough! After finished singing, May fong dedicated 'I believe I can fly' for me, although just the chorus part, yet it was touching. I insisted to wait ZEN and KEN before I made wish and blow the candle, during the time, my candles died out for a few times. I need to light them on with my shivering hand. Eventually they came and officially sang the birthday songs. Hence I made wish and blew the candles, the cake was served. Thanks for the people joinning the party and sorry for my extra-ordinary look.
I rushed back to my room and took a long bath(about half an hour), then i headed to mamak again to meet my friends again. Thanks for weijun coming! We chit-chatted and I was treated by ZEN for mamak. Thanks! Then we went back to room, they said they have a present ready for me. And they seems so secretive to hand me the present...I remembered I did signal them before what I desired to get, and I din't expect they will remember it! A wallet! I damn like the wallet until I'm not sampai hati to use it. Thanks them a lot! Love they all! We had a good time before the night ended.
The night was impressive for me until i couldn't fell asleep, I was still recalling the previous situation. During the whole process, it was really tough and shameful but somehow I was enjoyed it and I think I managed to coordinate myself with them, hopefully it did not disappoint the planner lo..Really I wanted to say thanks for those who risk their life to buy me a cake, intimately sharing their money for the wallet, but not for those who torture me so hard until it left some unbearable odour on my shirt! Haha, just kidding!
During 4th of march, which is my official birthday, i just could tell that i did not enjoy it so much. But I just would tell for my next blog....haha! Cause I don't want to spoil this page which I have written lots of happy things!
I think I will never forget the day of 3 March 2009. Starting from 11pm onwards, the things happened seriously never in my record of my life! It was gross! I was about to finish my dancing practise( I hate it), but during the practise, I noticed my friend Joee brought a cake to mamak, i guessed he is going to put it inside the refrigerator and prepared for my up-coming birthday...Haha, it was in my expectation, sure would celebrate at mamak! I always like to test my prediction and it is always justified...But not that day! I purposely delayed my dancing pratice and reached room with a tired body, KEN and ZEN are inside, ZEN was busy of something and i could see he took pales when he left...Erm...water fight huh? I pretended knowing nothing. As usual, i bathed and wore nicely, preparing for the so-called birthday party. I asked KEN about the missing of ZEN, and he told me lies, I considered them as nonsense la...Cause i guessed i know what was happenning. After that, I was brought to the lobby by Joee and KEN. Then, KEN started to blindfold me and i was panicked that i started to think otherwise. Surely a surprise, but what kind of surprise it would bring? Until I heard some familiar stench and freaky voices, I know what was going to happen! I would be tortured! I was not so sure how's it gonna to be, but I knew that time, i couldn't run away! The time has come, I was tied with the column in 'tengkayun' roughly, and the violence came. I was asked to choose a number of presents, 1-5. I knew what were they, water, ice, and so on...I randomly picked the numbers, and they started to give me a series of surprise, more suitable words, torments! They were insanely pouring the water on me, making me became a wet dummy. They putting ices inside my clothes and pants, making me became an ice man. They took off my belt and I was so shamed as there were girls watching out there! I wasn't so sure who they are since I was blindfolded. Next, a white man, they rub the toothpaste on my body, made my body shivering like hell! And perhaps they put the toothpaste inside my underwear as well! Huhu...hopefully the toothpaste was not expired...Whatelse? They threw water baloons on me, and also eggs, but i was so numb as that time cause my receptors were no longer working as there were too much sense happening simultaneosly...Lastly, they put the wax on my nipples. I was about to loosen my ties, and then i started to chase people for revenge, so unlucky, i fall down quite a few times until my silipar was broken, they were so expert in hiding, and i acted like a crazy people with upset appearance. Until Joee and ZEN dared to approach me and helped mr to rinse my body. I seized the chance to revenged on ZEN by pouring water on him. Haha..
It was definitely useless to rinse my body on the spots, and chai hoe suggested to go mamak to celebrate my birthday officially with my special look. What a 'nice' suggestion. Not to wasting too much time, i was excorted to the mamak. The weather is exceptionally cold! I was trembling all the time. Thanks for Mei Xian to help me switched off the fans. Then, my cake finally appeared, it was my second cake in my life! It was a choclate cake with bananas inside. 'Sorry, we all love you, Talung' was written on it with two big candles, indicating that i was already 20 years old. As a tradition of 2nd college, I sang 'trilanguage' birthday songs out loud for my own. It was no longer embarassing since my look is already shameful enough! After finished singing, May fong dedicated 'I believe I can fly' for me, although just the chorus part, yet it was touching. I insisted to wait ZEN and KEN before I made wish and blow the candle, during the time, my candles died out for a few times. I need to light them on with my shivering hand. Eventually they came and officially sang the birthday songs. Hence I made wish and blew the candles, the cake was served. Thanks for the people joinning the party and sorry for my extra-ordinary look.
I rushed back to my room and took a long bath(about half an hour), then i headed to mamak again to meet my friends again. Thanks for weijun coming! We chit-chatted and I was treated by ZEN for mamak. Thanks! Then we went back to room, they said they have a present ready for me. And they seems so secretive to hand me the present...I remembered I did signal them before what I desired to get, and I din't expect they will remember it! A wallet! I damn like the wallet until I'm not sampai hati to use it. Thanks them a lot! Love they all! We had a good time before the night ended.
The night was impressive for me until i couldn't fell asleep, I was still recalling the previous situation. During the whole process, it was really tough and shameful but somehow I was enjoyed it and I think I managed to coordinate myself with them, hopefully it did not disappoint the planner lo..Really I wanted to say thanks for those who risk their life to buy me a cake, intimately sharing their money for the wallet, but not for those who torture me so hard until it left some unbearable odour on my shirt! Haha, just kidding!
During 4th of march, which is my official birthday, i just could tell that i did not enjoy it so much. But I just would tell for my next blog....haha! Cause I don't want to spoil this page which I have written lots of happy things!
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